I lose 10 lbs

Sorry it took me so long to get this up here. Well as you all know the last time I weighed in before this weigh in I gained, so the next whole week I was wondering if I was going to gain again. Well I got to the center to weigh in, and I was wrong I lost 10lbs. So here is the video.

weigh in date 10/4/2010: previous week I weighed in at 450.2 and I weighed in at 439.8 for a loss of 10.4 lbs and a total loss of 150.2. :)

My first gain!

We all knew it was coming, so here it is.

I was not expecting this at all, and I thought I was mentally prepared for it. Little did I know that the fears would come back, and full force.

For about a month now, I have been having recurring nightmares that I go to sleep and wake up 590lbs, and in my dreams there is nothing I can do about it.

No matter how well I followed that plan in my dream, I still gained. Even though I know that is just a dream, I still had to talk my self out of feeling that way.

When I went to weight watchers and stepped on the scale, and saw that I gained 3.2lbs, I felt for the first time that sinking feeling that I often had in my dreams.

Before you start wondering if I went off plan, or if I ate something that I should not have, just let me clarify that I did not. I followed the plan to a T, and it was just my week to gain.

For the whole week I kept wondering; Am I going to lose this next week? Will I gain? It was definitely a learning experience.

You see if someone else came up to me and told me that they gained for the first time, and they followed the plan. I would ask them to look at how far they have come. I would have said that it was ok, and that the next week they would do better.

Why couldn't I grasp this for me. All I could see was the gain.

So after leaving the meeting, I called my weight watchers leader and had the opportunity to talk to her about it. She told me to look past it, and to think of how far I had come. Think of what I would say to other people.

I wasn't having any doubts about the plan, and I was not even close to thinking that I needed to stop eating right. That would be silly on my part. I just kept doing exactly what I needed to do.

I do believe that this gain will help me be prepared for others that might come, because there are going to be other hiccups. This is a life style not a diet. This is a healthy way of living, and weight loss comes along with it. I was still 450.2, that is such a dramatic change from 590, and I will never be back there, EVER!!!.

I wanted to share this with you, to show that it does happen along the way, and that yes this is a learning process, and every experience will teach us, it's our job to learn from our experiences.

Learning from our experiences is something that I am working hard to do. Now I will be better equipped to sympathize with someone who has had a gain, and I will hopefully be able to help them see through it.

Just because there was a hiccup does not mean this plan does not work. It works, I am proof of that, one gain and I am still significantly lower than my starting weight.

Here is the video of the gain, the week before I was 447.0 and this weigh in I weighed in at 450.2.

Enjoy. :)

Weigh ins.

Because I haven't posted in a while I thought I would just catch you up on a couple of weigh ins.

Here are the videos.

Weigh in date 9/8/2010: the week before I was 458.8 and I weighed in at 456.2 so i lost a total of 2.6lbs that week.

Weigh in date 9/13/2010: the week before I was 456.2 and I weighed in at 453.0 so I lost a total of 3.2lbs that week

Weigh in Date 9/20/2010: the week before I was 453.0 and I weighed in at 447.0 so I lost a total of 6lbs :).

I know there are some missing but in my next post I have some news to share before I post more.

I just want you all to know that I know that this works. I am losing weight and am proof that this system works.

Seeing the numbers on the scale shows me how far I have come, and how far I can still go.

I don't think that this plan is all about the scale though, there is so much more to it. Your attitude about life changes. You view of your self changes, and deciding that you can do this, with out excuses, gives you a power that no one can take away from you.

Sometimes all we have to do is get out of out own way. Believe me I am not with out hard moments as you will see in posts to come, but I do not doubt my ability to overcome this addiction and to concur it. Ultimately becoming healthy, in both mind and body.

My Wedding ring fits!!!! :)

So this happened quite a while ago but I had been wanting to tell all of you about it.

For about 3 years now I have not been able to wear my wedding ring because I was to big. I thought I was going to have to wait until I was under 400lbs to even get it on. During my weight loss journey I had tried it on a couple times, and it still didn't fit. So I decided to give it a while. Well one day I was in my second bedroom and decided you know what I will try it on.

It fit!

I feel that this was a big NSV (non scale victory), and one of my winning out comes (goals that are reachable). As I lose more and more weight I can start to see the old me coming back, and I love it.

Now when I am hit on (this never happens lol) they will know that I am happily married. :)

Here is my picture. enjoy.

Set backs.

I hurt my big toe!!!

I don't even know how it happened, I woke up one day and it was just hurting. Mostly it hurt when I walked on it, and since I recently joined a gym it has been hurting a lot.



I decided that the pain was no big deal, and I could work through it. I just kept trucking along and ignoring the pain in my foot. Not something I would encourage anyone else to do.

Anyway when I was walking with my leader Juan Te she told me, "You should call a Dr., you don't want to make the foot worse by walking on it".



So I immediately made an appointment with my primary care Dr., who told me there is a possibility it could be fractured. GREAT! I thought just what I need. She referred me to a podiatrist who told me that my foot is not fractured, but that I just have inflammation in the joint, and he gave me a shot, in the Joint. Ouch is right. I was off the foot for a couple of days.



I know that I have only been exercising for a little while now, but I felt so lazy. I just couldn't believe that my toe hurt so so bad to walk on it.



It still hurts now, and I will be going to see another Dr. about it, so I am just taking it easy. I still work out just not as hard core as I was with the walking.



I guess all I can say is these things happen, and I can't wait to be back to full work out mode. Then I can tare it up.

weigh ins from 8/9-8/30

I haven't posted my weigh ins for a while so here they are.

8/9 weigh in

I weighed in at 476.4 for a loss of 3 lbs and a total loss of 113.6lbs.

8/16 weigh in

I weighed in at 472.0 for a loss of 4.4 and a total loss of 118lbs.

8/23 weigh in

I weighed in at 463.0 for a loss of 9lbs!!! I know what a big loss huh. and a total weight loss of 127

8/30 weigh in

I weighed in at 458.8 for a loss of 4.2 and a total loss of 131.2.

I know that it is weird to see so many weigh ins on one post but I did this because I needed to get them out there. So here they are.

I am so excited to have lost a total of 131.2 now. A lot of people have been asking me, "Do you feel different?", and to that my answer is yes; I FEEL COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. I feel so happy, energetic, and more confident. Nothing can describe how I feel. I am loving life.

I honestly believe that if I can do this, anyone can do this. Sometimes I am asked, "How do you deal with the amount of weight you have to lose? How do you stay so motivated with such a long road ahead of you?"

My answer to that is set small goals, give your self something to look forward to. I set small goals all the time. Right now I am looking forward to hitting the 430 mark.

I know that I still have a long road ahead of me, but this is my life now. I will be eating healthy for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter how long it takes me to get to goal (that doesn't mean I am not working hard to get there) someday I will be there, and I will still be eating healthy then.

I have already signed up for the program for life. have you?

Vacation, and weigh ins

So my family and I just got back from Utah, ok maybe not just, but we went to Utah, and we got back about a week and a half ago.

For those of you who have been on a diet while on vacation know that it can be very scary, and hard.

I am here to tell you that it is not impossible. I had heard of the curse of vacation many times. "Everyone gains on vacation" they said, "it's inevitable" they said, "don't be to hard on your self for it" they said.

Well.....

Guess what......

They were WRONG!!! I didn't gain while I was on vacation, I lost :D, and I have the video to prove it. In your face vacation gods!!! (ok, I don't really think there are vacation gods, but still.)

We went to a meeting in Sandy Utah and this was the weigh in, I lost 1.2. Some may say Bah 1.2, that's not a loss. To them I say; oh yes it is. It may sound childish, but 1.2 is 1.2. So here is the video from that weigh in.

I have to admit I was very scared to go. I kept telling my self that it was going to be impossible that I would have my first gain, and there is nothing that I could do about it. I was obsessing. Yes obsessing, some may "Charles obsess, impossible" but I was.

For those that know me will get why that is funny, I am a compulsive obsesser.

What did I do? you ask.

Hold on I'm getting there. :)

If you have been reading my blog lately, you know that my leader Juan Te is always giving me words of wisdom.

She told me that when she was getting ready to go on her cruise that everyone was saying that everyone gains, and she was freaking out as well. Not even enjoying the thought of going on a cruise.

"What did you do?" I asked.

"I talked to my leader about it" she said, "and she told me that I didn't have to."

She told me that once her leader gave her permission not to gain, she relaxed, and she was able and have fun on her cruise, and not gain by the way.

Wow I thought, I can do this. I don't have to gain.

So I started to plan, expecting everyone around me to focus on my diet with me (not a good idea).

I didn't realize this until about 2 weeks before we left. My wife Carly and I were at her parents house discussing the vacation, and talking about how we could follow that plan while there.

I started to stress again, thinking "is this really possible? "can I really do this while on vacation, eating 9 servings of fruits and veggies everyday, not to mention all the other servings of things that I have to eat?"

Lets just say I was obsessing all over again.

Then my wife, who by the way is an angel, from heaven, said "why can't you just do it without making everyone apart of it?", "no one even has to know that you are eating differently", "it's not about them it's about you".

Huh I thought this is possible, I can do that.

Thus commenced operation, Utah trip.

I knew that we would be going out to eat a lot while on vacation, so I created a folder of restaurants and their point values for different items. We already have a dinning out companion from weight watchers, which helped a lot, but I mostly organized all the restaurants that weren't in the dinning out companion. It took me a whole week to create the folder. I worked very hard on it.

I also made planes so that I could get all my healthy guidelines in while we were there as well. Carly and her sister Jaimie, are also doing weight watchers with me, so it made it a lot easier on us.

Also Carly, Jaimie, and their Mom, prepared all of our points for the way up. We were on our way, and we were prepared to follow the plan.

I was so grateful for the plans that we made before we left. I'm grateful for Carly's family for being ok with us going to the store like every other minute, so that we could stay on the plan.

I'm not saying that everyone has to be as crazy as I am while on vacation, but it sure helps. :)

Here are some pictures of us while we were in Utah. enjoy.

Goofy Golf in Vegas.

Most of the family, when we were in St. George Utah

Carly and I, in an art gallery in Provo Utah Most of the family in Salt Lake City Utah, at Temple Square

Carly and I, at a park in Layton, Utah Most of the family at Brice Canyon National Park

Carly and I, at Brice Canyon National Park Me while on the way home. :)

Throw Down With Juan Te

sometimes when a person joins weight watchers, he or she doesn't always know what to eat. Well a woman in our group suggested that we have a challenge with food. So that challenge is as follows: Each person attending the challenge has to make a recipe, and everyone who comes votes on one and that person wins a prize.
Well I decided to make mac & cheese, 6 pts. for a cup or 2 pts. for 1/4 of a cup, and my wife made German Chocolate cup cakes, 3 points for a whole one. Other people brought other amazing meals.

Well after we all ate the winner was announced, and guess who won. Yep you guessed it I won for the mac & cheese, and my wife won for the German chocolate cupcakes. I was completely shocked, I mean everything was good at this potluck, but the members voted and we won.

I won a cook book, and my wife won a points calculator. We have the most amazing leader in weight watchers.

Here is a video of the food and the people at the pot luck.

I truly love to eat, and finding new things to make that are healthy is always fun.

By the way if you are wondering why there is a sign that says happy birthday, it's because it was my birthday. A wonderful member named Kim made it for me, and it made me smile so big. :)

Weight loss up-date

So I am really angry at my self because I deleted my last week video on accident but oh well I have this weeks video.
So last week 7/19/2010 I weighed in at 486.8 for a loss of 5 lbs. for a total loss of 103.2. I know I was as excited as you are I now have lost over 100 lbs. Sorry I don't have the video but you'll just have to take my word for it.

No this week I weighed in and lost another 6.2 lbs. for a total loss of 109.4 lbs. I can't explain how good that feels. I feel like a different person, and I am really happy about it. Here is my video.

Almost 100

I weighed in on last monday and I lost 3 pounds making my total weight loss at 98.2 pounds. I only have 1.8 pounds to go to get to my 100 pound mark. I am so excited for that. I have been doing weight watchers for 4 months now and I absolutly love it.

Oh yeah here is my video.

Anyway I weigh in today, so I will be posting that very soon.

A two week post

6/30/2010
I wasn't able to get on here and post my weigh in for 6/30 so I will just post both.

I just wanted you all to know that I am feeling so much better now. I have been sticking with my goal of only weighing my self once a week and that has been going so well for me.

Okay on to the weight. Well I did lose this week YAY!!! I lost a total of 3.4 pounds for a grand total of 501. Just 2 pounds from being under 500 pounds, but I am okay with that, there is always next week. :)

So here is the video.

7/7/2010

Okay so I bet you are all wondering how I did this week. Well I lost 6.2, so I know you know what that means, yep you guessed it I am under 500 pounds I now weigh a total of 494.8, for a total weight loss of 95.2 pounds. I am so close to having lost 100 that I can almost taste it.

I reached my first goal. So now for my next goal. I want to get below 475.0. Why 475.0 you ask? well, the first time I joined weight watchers I was 475.0 so that is why I have that goal. So I will celebrate when that happens.

So here is my weigh in video.

I weigh in again tonight, so I Will keep you guys up dated. :)

I lost 2.9 pounds!!! A harder week.

I lost another 2.9!!! Hurray, but I still have a lot of stuff to talk about. So I figured you could see my video first. so here it is.

Well first of all I should let you know that I now have a new goal for my self that I will no longer weigh my self during the week and limit my self to weighing in only once a week.

On Saturday June 19Th I had this urge to weigh my self wanting to see how I was doing for that week, and I found a scale at the hospital that weighed me so I thought no harm done. So I proceeded to drive over to the hospital and weigh my self, after having eaten, of course you know the outcome of that. I gained. I was devastated I didn't know what to say. All I could do is turn away from the scale and walk away. I was angry I almost said a curse word, and for those of you who know me, I do not cuss. Lets just say I was sad, angry, and on the verge of tears. Did I say once to my self, "Charles look how far you have come", "Look how much weight you have lost", no I didn't I, just felt shocked.

After getting in to the car I asked my self, "Did I not follow my plan?", "Did I do something wrong?", I couldn't think of anything. I told my self to, JUST GET OVER IT, and MOVE ON. Usually when I tell my self this I feel better, but the idea of my first gain scared me, and scared me bad. I had this irrational fear that I was going to wake up and be 590 pounds again and there was nothing that I could do about it.

As you can see I went to my meeting and I lost. Again I was surprised, shocked, and over joyed, but still suffering from the after effects of the thought of weight gain. I will post the video that I made post weigh in and you can see how I react. here it is.

After leaving the meeting I felt a lot better, but my fear wasn't gone. I decided who better to talk to about thin than Juan Te, my weight watchers leader, and walking partner, I expressed to her my fear of gaining all of my weight back, and she told me that I was not the only one who had this fear, and as I continue on my Journey, which I had no intention of giving up, that I would see results, and that losing weight comes with a lot of emotion and sometimes you don't always know how to deal with these emotions. She suggested counseling and I think that is something that would be beneficial to me.

Being a large man, okay lets face it, morbidly obese, I have a lot of emotions that I need to over come during this journey, which will help me be the improved, thin Charles that I want to be.

After talking to Juan Te, and understanding that one week I will have a gain. It is inevitable. I feel a lot better. I still know that I can do this, and I will. I wanted to write about this because this is real. Life isn't always perfect, and everyone has things that drag them down from time to time. I am so grateful to my wife, Juan Te, and all of you guys, my friends.

Now on a happier note. I will have another weigh in on Wednesday so I'll be posting that as soon as I can after that.

Also Carly and I are going to start doing Zumba. I am way excited about that, I tried it on Friday and I loved it. I will keep you all posted on that.

P.S.S. I have been meaning to get my before and up til now picture up so that will be soon.

Thank you all for your support, we are doing it. :)

Weigh in 6/16/2010

For a while I will not be weighing in on Mondays and I will start weighing in on Wednesdays so I will get an update on my weight as soon as I know. thank you.

I forgot my camera for this weigh in so I will have to just have the video up for the next time. I just wanted to let you all know that I lost another 6.3 and my new weight is now 507.3 that is a total of 82.7 pounds lost. I love the way that my brother puts it "I hope you don't find those pounds that you lost". I know it's corny but I thought it was funny. :) I also have some cool posts that I will be adding soon so be looking for those.

weigh in week 11

I lost 7.4 pounds this week and I can't tell you how good that feels. I have lost a total of 76.4 pounds and I can't stop smiling.

Carly, my wife, is also on a roll she lost another 2 pounds for a total of 38 pounds in 11 weeks. You go Carly!!!

So here is my video we forgot to turn it off so it's a little long.

Weigh in week 10

Because yesterday was memorial day, I was not able to weigh in, so I weighed in today and I will be posting the video soon.

For those that want to know now I lost 1 pound which isn't bad. That means that I have lost a total of 69 pounds in 10 weeks.

Well it took a while to get the video uploaded but here it is :)

So here is another weigh in and I lost another 7.6 pounds that is a total of 68 pounds all together I am extremely excited about that and I feel that I am seeing the results for the good choices that I am making in my life.

My wife wanted me to add in that she lost 5.6 pounds and so that puts her total to 33.2 pounds lost on weight watchers. So she hit her 10percent and surpassed it. We are both very happy campers.

Whats up with Charles? Where has he been?

As some of you already know I was recently admitted to the hospital for an infection, and I was in for 5 days. The whole time I was in the hospital I still followed weight watchers, THANKS TO MY WIFE, who brought me all my food everyday so that I could make sure to follow the plan. This means that I did not eat the hospital food. Also, being that I eat 44 points of food every day, means that she ,my wife, worked hard to get the food ready. THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT BABE.

You have probably guessed by now that I usually weigh in on Monday's, but I was in the hospital that day, so I went and weighed in on Wednesday (the day that I got out of the hospital). That is why I didn't film the weigh in, and I didn't have the camera.

What was my weight in? you ask.
I weighed in at 529.6 that's 60.4 pounds since joining weight watchers. Also that means I got my 10% key chain. I am feeling really good about that. I go weigh in tonight and I will definitely be posting that video.

I weighed in.

I lost another 3.4 pounds (yay), so that puts me at a total of 53 pounds lost. I also got my 25 pound pendant and my 50 pound pendant. :) I am one happy camper.

Another Weigh In

Wish me luck I weigh in tomorrow. I have been walking a lot this week so hopefully I see some good results on the scale. Don't forget I will be posting the weigh in here on my blog right afterwards.

Walking and a good old black bean burger.

At my work they have so many wonderful programs that you can do to get in shape, or just become more active. One of these programs is with Virgin health miles. With Virgin health miles you get a pedometer (that counts your steps), and you can up load these to your own personal website and monitor your activity, and if you get a certain number of health miles you can actually get money (I know right, good stuff). Well I have had my pedometer for a month now and have racked up a total of 1960 health miles, but in order to get money I need to have a total of 7000 health miles so away I go.





Well right now I am involved in a challenge with virgin health miles, that was set up by my weight watchers coach, who also works with me, so she has a pedometer as well. The challenge is to walk as much as you can. There are 6 teams, and it just so happens that I am on Juan Te's team. Juan Te is a walk master, she could walk circles around anyone. I feel very honored to be on her team so, being the competitive person that I am, I decided that I want to beat these other teams even more than we already would. I know when did I become this person? Isn't this a nice friendly competition between co-workers? The answer to this is yes it is. That's why there should be no hard feelings when we beat the other teams.





So what I decided I would do, since I work at a job where I sit down a lot, I would walk in place for 30 minutes 3 times a night. That seems to be working well for me. I am so excited to be contributing to Juan Te's and my teem. Go team Go.








On a side note, I love black bean burgers. They are made by morning star farms, and they are so good, not to mention they are only 2 points.

Live your life on purpose.

Right now at work we are doing this program called 'live your life on purpose', and I wanted to talk about how much this has inspired me.



I don't know about you guys, but I used to constantly think that if I was going to lose weight that one day it would just magically happen. In reality if we want to do something (lose weight, quit smoking, get more active) it has to be us that makes that decision. No one else, on this earth, is going to live our lives for us. We have to purposely decide that we are going to take measures to do something.



So in order for me to take my own advise I started to move more. I am learning to quit making excuses, and just do it. For the first time in a long time I worked out in my living room. For 2 minutes I walked and for one minute I ran. I did this for 30 minutes, and believe me it was hard. It was also kind of funny because when it was time to run I would start praying, out loud, almost pleading, that the clock would hurry and change to the next minute. I thought to my self this would make a hilarious YouTube video, but for some reason I am just not ready for to put that on YouTube yet. When I finished running I felt so proud of my self, the since of accomplishment was amazing, to the point that I talked about it for the rest of that day. Now I have since done that 2 other times and it is getting easier, I don't quite scream as loudly for the next minute to come anymore. Also Carly and I go walking together just about every night, and on Mondays before class we go walking with some members of our group in weight watchers at the target close to our meeting. When I first started moving and exercising more it was really hard. There were moments that I just wanted to give up and go take a nap. Taking the stairs at work seemed to me as if climbing Mount Everest. Weight watchers has helped me to live my life on purpose, and in doing so I have improved in all aspects of my life, spiritual, physical, and mental.

So I encourage you all to 'live your life on purpose'. As you do so you will be surprised at how much you grow, and the things you learn.

Eating...

As some of you may have guessed by now I love to eat. It is one of my favorite pass times. Which I guess is ok if I am eating the right things and following my points.

What are points? you ask: well points are what are given to food. Every weight watcher member is given a certain amount of points that they need to eat every day. The way they are given these points is by taking a test. The lowest number of points one can get is 18 and the highest one can get is 44. Well I get to have 44 points. Which is a lot of food.

Well everyday I fill out what is called a tracker. A tracker is a little journal, if you will, that you write the foods you eat in and subtract the points of the food from the 44 (or whatever number) that you get in the beginning of the day. Well in order to follow the plan there are healthy guidelines to be followed, and lets face it when they say "healthy guidelines" you get the impression that you don't have to do those things. Well I am here to say that that is not true, you will have a lot more success following those guidelines than just eating what ever you want.

So what do I eat? Well this is a typical day for me

44
2 egg whites 2 42
slice of cheese 2 40
olive oil 4 36
onion 0 36
grapes 1 35
orange pepper 0 35
corn 1 34
tomato 0 34
sandwich thin 1 33
chicken salad 2 31
chicken 1 30
cheese 1 29
brown rice 3 26
1/2 c. chicken 3 23
veggies medley 1 22
sweat sour sauce 2 20
watermelon 1 19
broccoli 0 19
1/2 c. cottage ch. 2 17
tortilla 4 13
motz. cheese 2 11
pizza sauce 1 10
pepperonis 2 8
w.w. mini burger 4 4
bagel thin 1 3
cream cheese 1 2
apple 2 0

Wow that is a lot of food now that I look at it. but of course it is dispersed throughout the day. everyday I have at least 2 lean proteins, 3 dairies, 2 oils, 5 fruits and veggies and a lot of water. I don't even drink soda anymore, not that I cant it's just that I don't want to waste my points on a mt. dew. This is a much healthier way of eating, and of course one has to eat to lose weight, but they just have to eat the right things.

Getting all of this ready takes quite a bit of planning, but of course as you know planning ahead is what makes me successful. I could not imagine how crazy my life would be if I hadn't planned ahead for the day. By the end of the day I would not be liked very much at all, and not to mention it would make it a lot harder to follow weight watchers for me.

Also I have an amazing wife (if you don't have one; I highly recommend it, just not mine she is... well mine). She takes a lot of time out of her life to help me, and her, plan ahead by putting pre packaged fruits and veggies in the fridge. I know right; this woman is a saint. When I am asked if I find it hard to plan ahead, I would have to say no, it is the best thing I can do for my self to keep a healthy lifestyle. I hope this has given you a look into what I eat. Of course it varies day to day but over all you know I am always going to get my; veggies, fruits, milk, oil, and proteins. Until next time, Charles.

And the winners are....

Our leader in weight watchers (who by the way is an amazing leader) set up a challenge to our Monday night class. The challenge was to help us weight watchers members to exercise and get moving more. The challenge lasted for a whole month with prizes that were, fancy serving spoons that measures your food for you, and a new member kit; which includes a dining out companion (so you can eat out and follow the program), a total food guide (which gives a general point amount for different foods), a three month journal (to record what you eat in it, and track your points), a recipe book (that give simple recipes for breakfast lunch and dinner), and a coupon booklet (with a lot of coupons for things you can get to make weight watchers more fun).
In order to win these wonderful prizes the leader had to pull your name out of the box. There were several ways you could get your name in the box.
1 entry for every 10 minutes of exercise
5 entries for exercising with the leader
3 entries for having walked 7000 steps on the day of weigh in
7 entries for turning in your tracker
Well I am all about winning something so I did all of those things, and so did Carly(my wife). Well today was the day to pick the big winners (no pun intended). So our Leader could be honest she decided she wasn't going to pick, so she had one of the front desk ladies pick. The first item up for win was the measuring spoons. The woman put her hand in the box and pulled a name; with the rest of the class holding our breath in anticipation. Carly! the leader called out. We all clapped because she deserved to win them, and frankly I felt hey if she won I win to, so to me it was a win win situation.
Now it was the time to announce the winner for the wonderful new member kit. A name was drawn and again anticipation. After waiting a few seconds she announced; Charles! WHAT! I screamed out yeah we both won.
Carly, being the most amazing person that she is, said "here you can have the spoons back, pick another winner". Smart girl keep the new member kit. But she was turned down we were told we won fair and square. That was pretty exciting.

The big weigh in.

So today was the big weigh in and guess what I lost 7 more pounds. I was so excited considering I didn't know if I would lose or gain this week (even though I did what I was supposed to do). So now I weigh a grand total of 540.4 which is a loss of 49.6 pounds since the beginning; so all I have to do is lose .4 of a pound and I will have lost 50 pounds. That will be a great day for me. I hope this video uploads.

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Well I have been doing weight watchers for a month now and have lost 42.6 pounds so now I weigh a grand total of 547.4. I know that I have a long way to go, but it is totally worth it to me. I go weigh in tomorrow and I will be recording the weigh in on my camera. I have been feeling a little heavy this week though, so I am nervous. I hope I lose some weight at least.
I joined weight watchers because I am sick of being this big. I did weight watchers one other time in my life, but I was not successful. Whats different this time? you ask; well my whole attitude has changed since then. I now know what it takes to do this, and that is to just do it.
It is so easy to think, this is hard, I don't have to do this, I can lose weight on my own. If I start to think I can do this on my own I am delusional and then I have no chance. Also, I had a real eye opener; one night on one of my runs to a fast food place (Wendy's) to "get my fix", I ordered a triple bacon cheese burger, 2 large fries, 2 double stacks, 2 spicy chicken nuggets, and a large soda, and I ate it all. I know some of you are probably thinking how is this possible, but believe me it is. So anyway after consuming my fest I laid in my bed and thought to my self; I am going to die, I am dieing.
It took some thought to realize that I am addicted to food. One day well talking to my sister, who is a recovering drug addict, on the phone; she was telling me about what it felt like to crave a drug, how you want it so badly and it is the only thing that will make you feel better, I said to her that that is how I feel about food. That was my realization that I was an addict my self and that my drug of choice was food. You see I always felt I was better for not having addictions but really I am not better at all. I thought if my sister could do this and stay clean for so many years than I can do this too.
People around me were making healthier choices, A friend at work was a real inspiration to me. I watched her join weight watchers and stick to it whole heatedly, she never complained that it was hard, she did what she needed to do and now because of her diligence she is right where she wants to be with her weight. I thought to my self; how is it that this woman is so strong? How is she doing this without complaint? It hit me like a ton of bricks, it takes accountability, and maturity to decide that you can do this. I am not saying that this has been easy for me, because to be honest; it hasn't. Even though it is not easy I have followed it whole heatedly.
In my weakest moments I have had to tell my self to get over it and just do it. I actually feel like I am enjoying how I eat. I eat a lot of fruits, vegetables, lean proteins, and dairy, along with some other things I enjoy. So to those that read this blog, I hope I am able to lift you when your down, with the hope that you will be able to lift me when I have my down moments. When I lose all of my weight that I need to I will have a big party, and who knows maybe I could even go on the Ellen show. That would be awesome. So I better get some rest, for tomorrow is weigh in. Have a good night.